wow it's no longer a blob!

Well yesterday we had a doctors appointment to hear the heart beat for the first time. Since Erik was able to come we decided to do the ultra sound so that he could see what's been growing for the first time. Well needless to say we were both speechless, which if you know us isn't a common thing for us. The image we were looking at was amazing! The doctor was great and we watched for about 5 minutes, mostly trying to get a good pic, with our mouths wide open. The baby was moving around like CRAZY! twisting and turning, movin and groovin! we got to see it's little fingers and toes, and it's round belly and head. I tell you what, I was used to seeing a blob on the grainy pic, but this was a little human being inside of me. Words cannot express the excitement and thrill that we were experiencing in those moments. After words we got to hear a healthy heartbeat, 150 to be exact. But even when listening to the heart you could hear it moving around. It was just an insane experience.

So of course the reality of everything is getter stronger and stronger, not that it wasn't real before, but when you don't see much change or feel much change it sometimes slips my mind. But yesterday it was very real, and very scary! You live your life saving money where you can and living according to how much you can afford with you and your partner, but then all of a sudden you have to factor in a new person, who is going to rely on you for everything. So we have started to look at what areas can we cut back, of course Erik suggested selling Graham, I'm sure he was joking... but yeah so we have started to consolidate and plan things, and one of the things we are looking at is becoming home owners! cause well a new baby isn't stressful enough we want to buy a home, in northern CA. So yeah it's an exciting time and we are learning new things everyday, but we are holding hands through all of it and standing strong as a team. these next 6 months should be an interesting time.

The other day I got Erik a book "The Expectant Father", mainly because when I am reading my book I wanted him to be able to read with me, but of course something more geared towards men. So If anyone has suggestions of other good reads for dads to be I am open to suggestions, of course any for me too!

I am showing now, not much but enough to make my jeans uncomfortable after a few minutes. I went to target a bought a belly band, which seems to be a great solution without having to spend money on new clothes, which I don't want to do until I absolutely have to. Of course nobody can tell but to me I am huge! My biggest concern is my work uniforms, they are not that great to begin with, and trust me what they have for pregnant women is very unflattering. So here's hoping the bellyband will last me long enough that I don't have to worry about work clothes for a while.

Back to work for me tomorrow, hopefully I get a good trip but I'm not holding my breath. I received and email from my manager and she told me that transfers will be worked in August, so here's hoping that by September I will be based in San Francisco. I will be flying like crazy in August to make some extra money while I can. I am hoping to fly until 7 months which will bring me to Dec. but I am going to listen to my body and my baby to let me know how much is too much.

Sorry this piece has been a little all over the place but I am just trying to get everything in that is on my mind. Peace, Love and Happiness!

Hello There!

Fourteen years ago Erik and I met. We had friends in common and would often run into each other, I never thought that he and I would fall in love and plan our life with each other.

About two years ago I was in my home town for my ten year high school reunion. Over a couple beers with my good friend Bec I asked her is she still saw Erik Gosiak. Still to this day I don't know what trigger me to ask her that, especially since Erik and I hadn't talked in many years nor were we ever close friends. To my surprise Bec had run into him serveral months before and he gave her his number in case she was ever out. So I insisted that she give him a call and tell him I was in town.
A few hours later Erik and his friend were picking us up, and the rest is history!
In a month we will be celebrating out two years together, and getting ready for our little family getting one more addition.
We are expecting a new addition in February 2011! I am at the end my first trimester of pregnancy, and soon will be entering the second trimester! So far things have been going great, all the tests and ultra sounds have been good and the morning sickness hasn't played much of a role (knocking on wood).
While all this is very exciting and we are thrilled to start our family, of course there are moments of stress. But we are both strong and love each other very much that no matter the challenges that may come upon us, we will be able to over come them and face them head on.
I am starting this blog so that I can update everyone we hold dear to us, and allow us to have an open forum. I hope that you all enjoy this and I will try to do weekly updates or just silly posts. I hope that is will also serve as a place for me to ramble or just post pictures of the places I go.

Cheers!

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